I know no one really follows me, and that is good in this case. I need to vent and know that my feelings were shared without the worry of bothering someone or being criticized for my feelings. For the past couple years, my best friend and I have been growing apart. We were always together because we faced the same difficulties, but lately we’ve faced different challenges and become different people.
This past month has been excruciatingly difficult for me. I tried my hardest to be with my friend, but her lack of understanding has kept me at a loss. Two weeks are left until her and her fiance tie the knot, and I no longer feel that I will be there for it. I have not wanted to be for a while now, and today she mentioned that she does not want me there either. I am not sad that we have drifted apart. Nor am I sad that she is acting this way. Rather I am sad that I wasted so much on our relationship that ended up in the gutters anyways. I’m sad that I got the tattoo. I’m sad that I spent hundreds to be in her wedding. I’m sad that I tried so hard on a relationship that was never meant to be. Lastly, I’m sad that I will never try this hard on a relationship again.
We grew apart, and that’s alright. But what not alright is my lack of will to ever fight for a person again. I know now that fighting things like this are futile and I should listen to my rule that I use for everything else, “What is meant to happen, will.” I will no longer fight for a relationship with anyone because I know if the relationship is meant to be, it will be. However, I feel down when I think about the fact that there will never be a person worth fighting for ever again.
I’m a college instructor and a student said this to me during my office hours today. Tragic. - Imgur
Apply some ice to that burn . . - Imgur
imgur: the simple image sharer - Imgur
To infinity..and beyond - Imgur
Just, awesome - Imgur
Iron Man and Silver Surfer. - Imgur
Why not incognito mode? - Imgur
Groovy Glasses! o.O - Imgur
I shall name him wormy.