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I know no one really follows me, and that is good in this case. I need to vent and know that my feelings were shared without the worry of bothering someone or being criticized for my feelings. For the past couple years, my best friend and I have been growing apart. We were always together because we faced the same difficulties, but lately we’ve faced different challenges and become different people.

This past month has been excruciatingly difficult for me. I tried my hardest to be with my friend, but her lack of understanding has kept me at a loss. Two weeks are left until her and her fiance tie the knot, and I no longer feel that I will be there for it. I have not wanted to be for a while now, and today she mentioned that she does not want me there either. I am not sad that we have drifted apart. Nor am I sad that she is acting this way. Rather I am sad that I wasted so much on our relationship that ended up in the gutters anyways. I’m sad that I got the tattoo. I’m sad that I spent hundreds to be in her wedding. I’m sad that I tried so hard on a relationship that was never meant to be. Lastly, I’m sad that I will never try this hard on a relationship again.

We grew apart, and that’s alright. But what not alright is my lack of will to ever fight for a person again. I know now that fighting things like this are futile and I should listen to my rule that I use for everything else, “What is meant to happen, will.” I will no longer fight for a relationship with anyone because I know if the relationship is meant to be, it will be. However, I feel down when I think about the fact that there will never be a person worth fighting for ever again.

Photo 21 May I’m a college instructor and a student said this to me during my office hours today. Tragic. - Imgur

I’m a college instructor and a student said this to me during my office hours today. Tragic. - Imgur

Photo 20 May Apply some ice to that burn . . - Imgur

Apply some ice to that burn . . - Imgur

Photo 20 May imgur: the simple image sharer - Imgur

imgur: the simple image sharer - Imgur

Photo 20 May To infinity..and beyond - Imgur

To infinity..and beyond - Imgur

Photo 20 May Just, awesome - Imgur

Just, awesome - Imgur

Photo 19 May Iron Man and Silver Surfer. - Imgur

Iron Man and Silver Surfer. - Imgur

Photo 19 May Why not incognito mode? - Imgur

Why not incognito mode? - Imgur

Photo 19 May Groovy Glasses! o.O - Imgur

Groovy Glasses! o.O - Imgur

Photo 19 May I shall name him wormy.

I shall name him wormy.


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